Martyrs

Well. Watched this movie last night called "Martyrs". Pretty fucked up, but surprisingly good. It kinda makes me worry about the kind of people who I'm sharing the world with!!! We're going out to eat tonight, just Sunshine, his mom and I. I haven't really eaten a lot the past few days, so I'm really looking forward to going out to eat. There's no food in this house. :( Well. Not much else to say here. I can't wait for graduation and to see my mom. We have a lot of catching up to do... I do really wish I could see my sister though. I really miss her. I guess I gotta wait though.

Hazy

I've been thinking about a lot lately. I'm very grateful for people in my life, even if they aren't really in my life anymore. The title of this blog has a deeper meaning. The song "Hazy" by Rosi Golan is what inspired me to write this post. I LOVE Sunshine. He's done so much for me. He truly knows how to fix me when I fall and hurt myself. He knows where to find me when I lose myself. He reminds me who I am when I forget who I am. He's amazing and I am so lucky to have him. I don't know where I'd be without him. As this final year of high school comes to a close, the feelings are bittersweet. I am excited to finally be done, but a huge part of me is still holding on. And I'm sure I'll continue to hold on for a while. This is all I've known for the past four years of my life, it's gonna be hard adjusting. Okay, I can't stop thinking about her. I love her to death. She's absolutely amazing, and I want to make sure she knows that. I haven't seen her in three years... oh god I'm gonna start crying... I haven't seen her in 3 years, we're thousands of miles apart, and yet she's my best friend. She cares. She stuck with me through EVERYTHING, when everyone else betrayed me and left. She came before anyone here. I'm just SO glad that the distance hasn't killed our friendship. She knows me inside and out and she could always put me back together. She's gorgeous and strong and smart and just amazing. I can't imagine my life without her. "Because without you, things go hazy."