LoveTheWayYouLiePt2

It’s so loud Inside my head With words that I should have said! As I drown in my regrets I can’t take back the words I never said I can’t take back the words I never said I really think the war on terror is a bunch of bullshit Just a poor excuse for you to use up all your bullets How much money does it take to really make a full clip 9/11 building 7 did they really pull it Uhh, And a bunch of other cover ups Your childs future was the first to go with budget cuts If you think that hurts then, wait here comes the uppercut The school was garbage in the first place, that's on the up and up Keep you at the bottom but tease you with the uppercrust You get it then they move it so you never keeping up enough If you turn on TV all you see’s a bunch of “what the fucks” Dude is dating so and so blabbering bout such and such And that ain't Jersey Shore, homie that's the news And these the same people that supposed to be telling us the truth Limbaugh is a racist, Glenn Beck is a racist Gaza strip was getting bombed, Obama didn’t say shit That's why I ain't vote for him, next one either I’ma part of the problem, my problem is I’m peaceful And I believe in the people. It’s so loud inside my head With words that I should have said! As I drown in my regrets I can’t take back the words I never said I can’t take back the words I never said Now you can say it ain't our fault if we never heard it But if we know better than we probably deserve it Jihad is not a holy war, wheres that in the worship? Murdering is not Islam! And you are not observant And you are not a muslim Israel don’t take my side cause look how far you’ve pushed them Walk with me into the ghetto, this where all the Kush went Complain about the liquor store but what you drinking liquor for? Complain about the gloom but when’d you pick a broom up? Just listening to Pac ain't gone make it stop A rebel in your thoughts, ain't gon make it halt If you don’t become an actor you’ll never be a factor Pills with million side effects Take em when the pains felt Wash them down with Diet soda! Killin off your brain cells Crooked banks around the World Would gladly give a loan today So if you ever miss a payment They can take your home away! It’s so loud inside my head With words that I should have said! As I drown in my regrets I can’t take back the words I never said, never said I can’t take back the words I never said I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence Fear is such a weak emotion that's why I despise it We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through It’s so loud Inside my head With words that I should have said! As I drown in my regrets I can’t take back the words I never said I "asked" for one thing for the past 3.5 years. I won't get it. It's fine, our paths will cross again someday... The person I've really had a connection to, the person who has been a friend to me for years, dealing with my bullshit, helping me through everything. All I really have now are a couple of pictures and a hundred hand written teenage notes about boys. At least its something. Distance does do damage to any friendship, relationship, etc. Don't tell me it doesn't.

F-StopBlues

Death is a natural part of life, everything dies eventually, and I thought I had accepted that fact, even embraced it as a great passing into a better place. It's easy enough when that's said about myself, but when it's about others I love, I just don't know... death's a weird thing. My grandfather has Alzheimers and a few other medical conditions, he's had a great life, it's been very fulfilling, and he's been healthy all his life. He's getting very old, and it's just about his time. I cannot imagine how my father is feeling, his own parent withering away... Honestly I don't look forward to those days where I take Dad's spot beside the hospital bed. On a lighter note, it's Sunshine and mine's 2 year anniversary today! We're going out to eat and buying eachother fancy $10 skins in League of Legends because we can't afford anything else XD We're going to Johnny Carino's, he's never been, and it's my absolute favorite restaurant. I hope he likes it, I'm sure he will. I love him so much, I really look forward the the years to come with him. He makes me so happy and makes me feel so whole, he means the world to me. He's always there for me, and I can never show all of my appreciation no matter what lengths I go to. I'm so happy we're together, I don't know where I'd be without him!!!