Walls

It's been so long. I know I know.

Plenty has happened that I'd rather not look back on.

But I've moved on, right?
I'm ok, right?
Tell me I'm alright.

It's funny that even when you're dead, I still do what you want.

You're dead to me, I can't understand it, I try but I just can't.
You don't even want to look back, to look back and remember, to regret what you're doing now.
I can't understand, maybe someday I will.
Maybe I'm too young, maybe I'm to inexperienced, maybe I just have no capability to understand the "complexity" within your mind.

The truth to me, is that you are simple-minded. Selfish. Ignorant. You try to escape the one thing you can't ever change: Yourself.
No matter what bullshit pill you take, what mind-altering poison you drink, you are still you. You can't ever escape, trust me. I'd know.

You always say that I should accept who I am, where I am in my life, who is in my life, and where my life is going. But you can't even look at yourself without wanting change, without wanting to evade your entire life.

Who are you really?

Let her go, let her find out who she is. Make her forget all about you. Let her be the person she so desperately needs to be.



But I'm ok, right?



Ok, also I need to rant a little bit about people talking shit about other people.
I know, I have done it too, but it bothers me when people act like they are friends with someone, but the second their back is turned, shit is being spread, talked about.
I'm done doing that to people. It's cruel and I wouldn't want it done to me.
These high school girls act like they are the little second graders, catching cooties from people. The cooties don't even matter, but they are a huge deal.
I don't want to lie, I don't want to act like I like someone when I really don't, and I don't want people around me doing it either.



So, I wrote something a very long time ago, and I'll put it on here unless I already did in the last entry, I'll check and if I did not post it, I'll make another entry and put it there. :) Loves!