Beautiful

It seems like I'm going in two directions with my emotions and my life.

One direction is down, into depression. Protector, of course. It brings me down, it seems like everything reminds me of him. The real him. I miss him so much with every passing minute.
With this direction I feel myself getting more and more tired. Worn out. Not focused. Antisocial, even with my family. The only time I really come downstairs is to eat or go on my nightly walk. It sucks.
The other direction is forward. I'm learning new things about life. I'm meeting people that are so positive and outgoing, I just cannot match them. My life is moving, whether I want it to or not. Every day feels dull and just like the last one. But no matter what the days are like, they still pass. Time still goes. I'm still dying. We all are. Nothing lasts forever.

Am I being too depressing in this post? I'm sorry, it's just how I feel. Only a few people talked to me today. And not the ones that really matter, besides Kenai and my old friend Dolphin. I feel so alone. Wanderer didn't even talk to me today.